Doubting Thomas

John 20: 24-29
24 But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came.
25 The other disciples therefore said unto him, We have seen the Lord. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe.
26 And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them: then came Jesus, the doors being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you.
27 Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.
28 And Thomas answered and said unto him, My Lord and my God.
29 Jesus saith unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed.

This is a continuation of the theme I began with the article, Proceed With Caution, concerning my special phrase and the immense significance of what I'm doing. Please read my articles from that point on. I will also have a several related Bible articles, of which this is the second. The first is Passing the Test. The third will be from the Old Testament. I also have at least one more regular article planned. Each one represents something profound which has come to me as a result of saying my special phrase. I don't even think about it, it just suddenly appears, which is why it is so important to read all of the articles, if you are interested in awakening through this method. Remember, when the date changes on the right column of my Home Page, something has been added, and whatever article is new will also be dated. The Bible articles are found below the regular articles, and the Index for all Bible articles is below that. If you are getting nowhere in discovering your special phrase, focus on your deepest goal, then say a phrase which represents it. It may turn out being the correct one or lead to the one that is. When you discover your special phrase, it will have magical effects.

The theme here, that has come blasting into my presence is "No Fear; No Doubt; Just Trust." Trust whom? Ourselves of course. Through this awakening process, we are re-connecting and re-membering our original selves, the Multidimensional, Past/Future, and extremely wise selves, who programmed themselves (us) before reincarnating in order to ensure that we would not fail in our mission again. Period. That's why these special phrases are so fascinating, at least mine is, because it is revealing ME to . . .ME!! And though no one else could possibly make sense of what I am doing, it all makes amazing sense to me. And my behavior has indeed been strange lately, but no more so than the practice of the Tibetan monks who sought enlightenment. More on that at the end of this article.

I suspect many people scoff at my firm belief that we can and always were completely capable of manifesting the physical world with our minds. People believe "God" did it, so why not ourselves, who are also "Creator Gods?" And yet, even strong Christians and Bible scholars reject the idea that Jesus did the same. Yet the Gospels are filled with "miracles" he performed, which were not actually miracles, but a natural ability that he and we have always had. There are Christians who go on and on about Jesus coming to earth to redeem us from "sin." How silly. But they refuse to believe he actually changed the water into wine.

And so it is with us. People cannot believe that we could create a planet, yet Bringers of the Dawn clearly states that we did. We are like Thomas. Once we see it, then we might believe it. Or not. But that is exactly the opposite of the way it really is. Jesus tells us that point blank. If we are waiting to see ourselves perform a "miracle" in order to believe it, we have a long wait. We must believe ourselves ready and capable, and then we will remember our creative abilities. Seeing isn't believing. Believing is doing.

I also want to point out that Jesus isn't telling us to be gullible and believe anything. But Thomas knew Jesus well, and supposedly trusted him, as he also knew the other disciples. Why would he not believe? And why would WE not believe in our powers and abilities when anyone who has even remotely awakened can see it is obvious that what it being foisted upon us in this fake reality is hiding the truth about who we are and what we can do?

Fear, doubt, and lack of trust are perhaps the three greatest hindrances in our awakening. Our minds are so very powerful, and yet we still hesitate to use them to our full ability. We're not even close. And when we add the spiritual aspect to creation, how can it not be possible? Why do we struggle with this?

Matthew 17: 18-20
18 And Jesus rebuked the devil; and he departed out of him: and the child was cured from that very hour.
19 Then came the disciples to Jesus apart, and said, Why could we not cast him out?
20 And Jesus said unto them, Because of your unbelief: for verily I say unto you, If ye have faith as a grain of mustard, ye shall say unto this mountain, Remove hence to yonder place; and it shall remove; and nothing shall be impossible unto you.

Mark 9: 23
Jesus said unto him, If thou canst believe, all things are possible to him that believeth.

How much more blatant can it get? Jesus tells us over and over what we are capable of doing. And yet even the Bible-quotin' Christians would argue that we can't manifest the physical world, when Jesus clearly tells us we can.

And so, once again, I have gained immense insight by saying my phrase ad nauseum. And that is actually one of the points. From the spiritual level, when we get so sick of something, often at a very deep level, we let it go and POOF!! Suddenly our physical world shifts. This has happened to me a great many times lately. In addition, I have a gut feeling that by repeating this phrase over and over and over, it is not only programming new belief systems in my brain and mind, it is also burning away the Reptilian damage. It is breaking down the resistance that was programmed into us to keep us in a spiritual stupor. When I say it, it also blocks any incoming attempts to hack my thoughts. Mantras, spiritual chants, prayers— any of these methods work on us at a very deep level and we subtly shift without even being aware. Eventually we notice that a habit or pattern has changed, or, we get the "POOF!!" reaction when something very massive and obvious changes, and our beliefs and life changes, too.

For the past several months, I've had this feeling that something very big is coming for me any day. This whole need to absolutely wipe out doubt and fear, and replace it with trust has become an obsession and urgency. The situation I have been dealing with here is, well, beyond anyone's nightmare. I have to keep dealing with the same issue again and again and again and I just want to be free of it. But it has been just recently that I suddenly saw it all from a different perspective, which of course, is related to my special phrase. Every day, I am understanding more and more the truly horrendous challenge I find myself in, but only in the past couple days have I understood that this nightmare is my path to awakening. Just as Jesus had to be crucified in order to defy the illusion of death, I feel like I, too, must face a real horror without fear, without a doubt in my mind that this is my cross to bear. And even more important, I must completely trust that it was I who set it up this way before reincarnating, which also is related to why I am precisely here on this one particular spot on planet earth. Every day things get worse, but I get better. I am trusting more and more that this is magic, not a nightmare. And though I am sure most of it was caused by Alien interference, that was part of the deal, so it is also a GIFT. And I am becoming grateful that I have an opportunity to overcome an immense challenge, which when I do, will also complete the transformation to a completely awake, courageous and powerful being. And add to that, wisdom, because without wisdom, none of the other three are important. Plus, the illusion will be wiped out, and I will wonder how I could fear what isn't even real. But like Dorothy and the ruby slippers, I have to go through the process that raises me up to the level to which I strive before I can see my own ruby slippers. It is the journey that counts, because that is what builds us into what we want to be. And by the way, Aliens get really pissed off when you are grateful for something nasty they have done. Keeping a positive perspective is what they don't want you to do.

I think the whole New Age craze kinda lost the fact that the journey is what is necessary to create change and build spiritual muscles. The gurus wanted to make quick money, so they had to give the population something easy and fun that promised instant gratification. That's why so few stuck it out. People like myself continued the hard way simply because there were no other options. We had started something that that had to be finished. Something inside us would't let us stop. It has been a very long journey indeed.

How will the end product to all this appear? I dunno. Will I be here or back where I belong, or on my own little planet that I want to create? I am not even thinking about that, because I KNOW that none of this is just circumstance, and I carefully planned it out as the most effective way for me to reach my very highest goals, way before I became this body. The higher you reach, the more grueling the journey. So much is being revealed to me, and not only am I feeling a reconnection to my multidimensional self, I am feeling that I am it! Know thyself! But the best part is that I am able to see a positive reason for all the terrible things I have gone through. Now that I see it as the best means for me to reach my goals, I am also becoming more aware of specific things I need to learn from the experience. Knowing how this has been set up is not only making it SO much easier to cope with, but I am seeing now the light at the end of the tunnel, and I know that the more work I put into completing each task and challenge, the faster I can move forward. I think that's why I see something very big coming for me very soon.

I just want to mention now some ways to help my readers deal with all this, because we're all getting hit with it, some more than others. Most, as I have said, will lose their souls and become a 'bot or 'droid because it is the easier way out. In fact, the easy way out has become the mantra of society. Feel sick? Pop some pills. Don't give a thought that your illness is actually your soul trying to get in touch with you to investigate what is wrong in your life. And that goes for drinking, addictive sex, violence, lust for wealth, and even being a workaholic—all the things people use to avoid facing themselves. They will have to eventually, even the transhumans, and, well, gosh, I cannot even imagine, from a spiritual standpoint what these beings will have to endure. And quick fixes for everything. If it breaks, throw it away and buy another. As I have mentioned before, what is happening now on this planet is not fixable, at least physically. We must let things fall apart and fix them at a higher level.

I had "Casting Doubts" listed on my Mind F**k article, but I have to say, those who seek to control us don't have much of a challenge with this one. All they have to do is send us in the direction of one of the billions of toxic people who abide on this planet, and I think, of all the ways that we have difficulty dealing with our doubts, it is mostly because of evil people. Or just very unawakened people, who love to undo our spiritual work. So be very aware of that one, and I am sure most of you are dealing with that kind, often family members that it is not easy to walk away from, and arguing only makes it worse. You know the types I'm talking about. The bullies. Or the constant bitchers and complainers that never do a thing to take responsibility for their spiritual and mental welfare. They do not practice any kind of method to deal with the root of their deep issues, and so they project them into others. Then they wonder why their lives are such a mess and blame everyone and everything else instead of their own behavior.

The reason I wrote that article in the first place was not to be negative or make people paranoid. It was to help make people aware and then take steps to deal with it. Often just stepping back, refusing to react (they hate that!) and shifting youself in a different direction can malke the difference between a disaster and a little mishap. When you notice yourself in the presence of a toxic person or Alien energy, just walk away—get away from them as soon as possible so their dirty energy doesn't soil yours.

And the other point I must make is to be sure that the information you recieve is coming from the Multidimensional you. I mentioned in the Mind F**k article to beware of psychics, but that applies to any other source that is NOT some aspect of you. And that includes "angels," often evil forces disguised to snare you. Yes, I have experienced that. Or "spirit guides," likewise. And certainly tarot cards or any of the other means people use to "predict the future," The "future" doesn't really exist—remember, we can only live in the present and each choice we make effects the outcome. Future and past are just handy terms we use in our physical state to clarify time, which doesn't exist either. Everything exists at once, and changes at each moment. I am a firm believer that all possibilities already exist, and we move our lives by a series of zig-zags, choosing which possibility to experience at a given point. That's why it is so important to re-connect with that highest aspect of ourselves, who can see the big picture. That by the way, will be the topic of my next article. And incidentally, back decades ago when all this horror began, and I desperately needed to understand it to make it stop, NOT ONE SOURCE even remotely offered me the truth. Now that I am working with my special phrase, I DO understrand that clearly. I had to discover everything myself, including enduring what I have endured. That has built who I am, and I could not skip any steps, nor could I seek comfort. Yeah, it's been a bitch. I'll bet many of you are going through the same. I hope my writings help.

Back in April, 2013, I read and posted a book on my site, Magic and Mystery in Tibet.. Even if you have not read any of my other book reviews, please read this one. Alexandra David-Neels published this book in 1929, after spending fourteen years in the "forbidden land." She herself became a practicing Buddhist, and not only witnessed feats of "magic," or rather, those who gained mastery over the physical realm, but she herself was able to perform many feats, such as creating phantoms. Of course, even back in the early part of the century, these people truly lived in isolation, which enabled them to develop their skills of manifestation without the interference of society. Then comes along Elon Musk, who wants every square inch of the planet to be connected to the internet. There will be no place to hide, another reason to inspire us to get the hell off this planet. That's also the reason ancient peoples really were much more in touch with the non-physical realm and were able to move in and out of it. Perhaps that's why the Reptilians have urged humanity to reproduce in vast numbers, then make them think that's what "God" wants. Meanwhile, we're in the process of overpopulating ourselves to death.

But even in isolated Tibet at the time, monks who were seriously obsessed with attaining enlightenment would isolate themselves in the extreme. It was called the "Short Path,"—acceleration to ensure that the monk achieved his goal in this lifetime, which included risks. You'll note that I have also on many occassion questioned the "laws of Nature." Here is a quote from my book review. "Loneliness doesn't seem to be in their vocabulary. It is not out of the ordinary for hermits to spend years in a cave in utter darkness, doing nothing but meditation and mastering the mind. David-Neel says, "They have no fixed ideas about the laws of Nature, or what is possible and impossible. . ." Here is another quote from the chapter, Dealing With Ghosts and Demons.

However, far away from these sumptuous apartments of the Lama tulku, isolated, small dwellings sheltered monks whose grave look and mysterious demeanour matched the surrounding scenery more harmoniously

Some of the tsam khangs [houses for recluses] were inhabited by strict recluses who had intercourse with nobody. Among them, some aimed at obtaining supernormal psychic faculties or magic powers, while others were absorbed in mystic contemplations which, according to the views held in their sect—should lead them to spiritual enlightenment

For long, the monastery of Dzogschen has been famous as a centre where secret methods of psychic training are taught and practiced.

I want to add that, at these monasteries, there was no "group worship," or worship at all, really. Each novice, working along with their teacher, chose their own path, as David-Neel mentions above.

This book is available for free at Internet Archive, which does not require membership or creating an account except to watch free movies. You can download it for Kindle, EPUB, PDF, or read it online. And if you are interested in the materials I cover, I strongly suggest you do.
Magic And Mystery In Tibet